These are my thoughts and prayers as I read God's word and apply it to my life.
Saturday, November 20, 2010
not good enough
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Jason Gray - I Am New
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Righteousness
11 The mouth of the righteous is a fountain of life
21 The lips of the righteous nourish many
28 The prospect of the righteous is joy
30 The righteous will never be uprooted
31 From the mouth of the righteous comes the fruit of wisdom
32 The lips of the righteous know what finds favor
Saturday, November 6, 2010
Seeing Good
Blessings just from the past 2 days:
Found a special earring that has been missing for 4 years!
Got a brand new $60 pair of jeans (that are LONG enough!!) for FREE!!!
Had an unexpected lunch with a former aquantaince
Enjoyed a fun day shopping with my babies and the mom's group
Had dinner with friends (no cooking!!)
Get to post to my blog while girls ar napping an honey is hunting!
Got to bless a neighbor with a card and gift and share a testimony....seed planting!
I could go on and on....God is so good and I want my eyes opened to see the Good He is working in my life!
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Know it All
Sometimes, I think I know it all...of course, the older I get, the more I realize how little I know. So, just imagine me as a teenager, wow- was I a know-it-all! In the past I have been so afraid to look like I didn't know it all, that I have pretended that I did know it all.
This verse was comforting to see that even Jesus grew in wisdom. Even though he was God and he did know everything, he still grew in wisdom!! How much more do I need to grow in wisdom???
Thank you Lord for your Word. Lord I want wisdom more than riches, let me grow in YOUR wisdom, not the world's wisdom.
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Not by might...
So he said to me, “This is the word of the LORD to Zerubbabel: ‘Not by might nor by power, but by my Spirit,’ says the LORD Almighty.
I can't take the glory for myself....Pride comes from the enemy (but so does condemnation). When I understand the message of grace, the only thing left to do is worship God!
How can I do what God calls me to do when I don't have 'enough'? It's a great time for God to show off. His grace is sufficient (2 Corinthians 12:9)
Amazing Grace
Last night I was convicted of some negative attitudes and wrong thinking...this morning I was living in condemnation about them...thinking to myself that I keep ending up here and will never be able to change, and wondering why I can't 'get this'! One of the things Pastor Charlie reminded me this morning is that condemnation is from the devil (Romans 8:1). Then as we read in Zechariah 3:1-7 I realized that I was listening to the accuser. These verses spoke to my heart what God has been teaching me through the Living Loved Living Free Bible Study and Search for Significance. I have been so slow in believing, but this demonstrates that Christ will put rich garments on me instead of my filthy clothes!
Verse 5 talks about putting a clean covering on his head...the mind of grace! Oh Lord, how I long for you to renew my mind day by day! Thank you that you are changing me, and the work has been done, I just need to trust you!!
Friday, October 29, 2010
Alive and active
Lord thank you that your word is alive and active in me!!! Thank you for your mighty power, I want to live in you and stop trying to do it myself. Thank you for the reminder that I need your power.
Stand your ground
Strength Will Rise
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Take a Load Off
Jeremiah 17:19-27 ...bring no load through the gates of this city on the Sabbath-Do not bring a load out of your houses-keep the sabbath day holy by not carrying any load...
Lord we carry loads when we come into your sanctuary, when we enter your gates-we should have thanksgiving, but we carry a load instead. A load of hurt, offense, bitterness, insecurity, worry, anxiety, anger, stress, pain and unforgiveness. We carry this load-all this baggage, but you want us to lay it down and keep your sabbath day holy! Once we experience a day of rest we won't want to pick it back up because we don't have to carry it anymore! Wow! Lord, I lay down my load now, my fears and concerns, my desires, my life-I lay it before you now. I take your yoke upon me and receive your sabbath rest. I can rest in the finished work of the cross and trust in your timing! Remind me and all your people not to pick up our loads again.
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Blanket
After many 'blanket disagreements' my husband has used his own blanket for the past few years. Apparently I'm a 'cover hog' but if he has his own covers he can wrap himself tightly and not lose his blanket. This blanket has also been the source of disagreement as well...I want to be close and touch his skin.
So one night, or early morning about 3:00 I woke up and rolled over to snuggle him. I reached out and felt the blanket and tried to get my arm under it but it was wrapped tight! In frustration I huffed and rolled back over. That's when it happened! I heard in my heart that I would have to keep trying to reach him, to touch him...that I couldn't just give up and roll over.
This meant more than in the physical sense...yes, that night I was giving up on reaching him physically. But have I tried to give up reaching him emotionally or spiritually or mentally?
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Monday, August 23, 2010
Never Overwhelmed
Friday, August 6, 2010
Daddy's Girl
It's been almost 13 years since he died. I realized earlier in the week that I have some abandonment issues with that....daddies aren't supposed to die when you are in college. They are supposed to walk you down the aisle when you get married. They are supposed to be there to hold their grandchild. They are supposed to be someone you can count on when life is rough-a place you can go for loving arms and reassurance. A strong place, a protector, someone who will always love you and look out for you....that's what Daddies are supposed to be.
But I don't have my Daddy...Why? Have you ever heard the saying 'Don't ask God why, ask Him what can I learn from this?' Well I did ask Him earlier this week. Here's what I can learn:
Maybe it's so I can learn to trust my heavenly Father, even while I'm on earth. So I can learn that He's the One I can count on when life is rough, He's the place I can go for loving arms and reassurance. He is my strong place, my protector. He is the one who will always love me and look out for me. Yes! That is what I have learned about my heavenly Father in the absence of my earthly father. He knows the plans he has for me, plans to prosper me and not to harm me, plans to give me hope and a future. I will call upon Him and come and pray to Him and He will listen to me. I will seek Him and find him when I seek him with all my heart. (Jeremiah 29:11-13)
My relationship with my daddy was never perfect, he had problems, and so did I. But my relationship with my Abba can be perfected because of Jesus' sacrifice. Even though our relationship was difficult, I have always been a daddy's girl at heart. I longed to know I was special and cared about. Although my daddy wasn't always able to show me that in ways I needed, my Abba can.
I am sometimes envious when I see a daddy and daughter together. I wish I had a daddy here on earth. But even if daddy were here it would take work to honor him and have a good relationship. I thank God He has placed father figures here on earth, but maybe I haven't invested the energy to develop the relationships I would desire. I think I'm scared of being abaondoned again. Do I put forth the effort to embrace a relationship with my heavenly Father? Probably not, or I would be more healthy and whole now, more like Jesus. I am so thankful that he who began a good work in me will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus....and He's so patient with me! I am so thankful that he will never leave me, even though my daddy 'abandoned' me by death, my heavenly Father will not. Jesus conquered death to give me life and a relationship with my Abba Father!
So, If you are a daddy-realize how important you are in the life of your child. If you have a daddy, be sweet to him! If you don't have a daddy, rejoice that you can have a relationship with your heavenly Father!
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Roots
16I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ,
Colossians 2:6-7 (New International Version)
6So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live in him, 7rooted and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness.
While doing the GPEC summer Bible study, God continued revealing to me that I have a root of rejection in my life. Yucky fruit is the sign of a yucky root! I can try and try to get the fruit to go away, but unless the root is addressed, I'm laboring in vain! The fruit of this root of rejection has been seen in my relationships (or lack thereof), in people pleasing, in doubt and insecurity, and lack of hospitality and serving. It has also caused me to doubt God's truths about me.
I am deciding that it's time to dig that yuck root out and grow in Christ's love!!!!
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
No fear 3. Refuge of relationships
Psalm 46
Numbers 35:24-25
God wants to be my refuge. Where I go when trouble comes is my refuge.
Be careful about relationships Matthew 22:37-39
Refuge of relationship. With God and others
Have freedom to walk away 5 wrong replacements
1. Things. Can't replace relationships. Fruit. House. Car.
2. Isolation. Have been hurt and are withdrawing. If we stop trusting
people we can eventually stop trusting God. Acts 2:42. We need each
other. Find refuge in the congregation. Wolf gets sheep on the edge
work myself to the middle. Get involved
3. Unrighteous relationships. 1 Corinthians 5:11. We need to separate
ourselves. Don't walk backwards. Get to where you r pointed. Love them
2 Corinthians 6:14
4. Religion. Don't replace relationship with tradition or rules
religion is doing things so u don't deal with what's going on in u. We
need he refuge of God. Power in relationships but no power in religion.
5. Busyness. Just too busy to build relationships. Martha stop it's
not that important. Don't hurry. We worry about things that don't have
a lasting impact.
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Loving well. Session 3
1 John 4:13-
Matthew 5:23-24 some relationships wern't meant to exist Never
minimize power of apology
When we say I can't He can.
John 15:9 remain dwell abide in my love =live continue
Live in His love. We won't love well until we feel well loved
Testy is difficult foe is impossible
17-19
1. Let's start loving because we r already loved. Not so we will be
loved. Human love is self seeking we will be motivated by what we can
get out of it
I love------because God first loved me.
We look for love in humans and it doesn't deliver. Get our cup filled
by Gods love. We are perfectly unfailingly loved by God
Genesis 29:31-35we strive for love. If we Manipulate to get it we
rarely keep it. Desperate enough for attachment. Make sure I'm needed
so much.
I can love not because u love me but because the lord loves me.
Some things have to keep a wire on(teeth) some things we may never get
over. Get freedom and don't go back
2. Romans 5:5 learn to love with the love of God. Don't have to use
our small resource of love. Testy have been assigned and chose for us!
God will use them to complete something that's lacking. They will
bring us gain even though they will bring out the worst (keep it out
don't bite the bait).
3 Lets learn to love with insight Phil 1:9-11
Not called to love blindly ask for insight. Something is broken in
testy. We have ppl who can't voice love can't expect them to love us.
Get insight then compassion. If we don't deal with our stuff we will
be testy and foe. May love from arms length
4. God is going to call us to see hard love as an offering on His
alter. 1 John 4:10. Eph 5:1-2. Sacrificial love. Forgive bring it to
the Alter as a gift. Sacrifice rights and grudge I want to hold lay it
down. When we hang on to it we let it happen over and over again.
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Loving well session 2
Let God love on us he won't do through us what he hasn't done in us.
We will not love well until we feel well loved!!!!
If we could get it down we would free others up
1 John 4:16 amp. Do I recognize Gods love? Pharisees John chap 5
studying is easier than loving. Don't know if love of God is not in
us. We know things intellectually but not in our heart.
1. God is perfect love. Not just a feeling. Not relegated by
circumstance. Nothing we can do can change it. It's not an emotion.
It's part of His Godness. He's just being Himself
Teleios complete to reach it's goal. Gods love is complete in us and
to us. When we stay in fear were not letting God's love work in us.
Not hampered by insecurity or anxiety. To the degree we battle
insecurity or anxiety were not letting God love us.
We are not yet mature in love if we have insecurity and anxiety. It's
unbelief and routed in pride.
2. Nothing can separate us from Gods perfect love nothing. Gods
love is unlike any other love. Isaiah 49 mom give up infant.
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Sunday, April 25, 2010
never give up
Praise is a spiritual weapon! Remember other victories and praise Him!
We don't have to see answers, just know that God has one! Do you like to surprise your kids with fun things? So does God!
Helping Others is a weapon: Be a blessing...don't withdrawl and nurse your wounds.
Word of God is a weapon
We may need to pass some tests before we get promoted.
fruitful garden
Isaiah 58:11
Loving well. 1 John 4:7-
Love will grow cold. Duct tape to bind our own wounds
Philotos lover of self. Too risky to love others. Loneliness
Relationship happens where we can get hurt.
Can't love well unless we let him love us!!!
4 kinds of people to love
Joy. Phil 4:1 ppl we love to love
Testy. Phil 4:2 drives u crazy to love. God uses to test our love God
works out what is self centered. Not around by choice have to be
around alot
Foe. Called to love our enemies. Who do u hate? Who will u not
forgive? Don't look far it's someone close lots of access
Far. Stranger doesn't show up daily Open our eyes and realize they
are there
4 confessions of love
God is perfect love
Nothing can separate me from Gods perfect love
God pours his perfect love into my imperfect heart
Accessed, I can love anyone through anything.
To live well is to love well.
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Malachi 3:6-12 feb 14
Faith family finances return to God
Tithe represents test
If it's wrong under the law Its wrong under grace
Matt 5 18-22 27-28.
The righteousness of grace always exceeds the righteousness of the law
Gen 14:18-20 before law Gen 28:22 Lev 27:30 Deut 26:1-2 13-15
Matthew 23:23
Hebrews 7:1-8
Tithing is a benefit 2 Chronicles 31:4-10
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Saturday, April 24, 2010
Blooming Fruit
Eccl 3:11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end.
Trust
Therefore thus says the Lord God, Behold, I am laying in Zion for a foundation a Stone, a tested Stone, a precious Cornerstone of sure foundation; he who believes (trusts in, relies on, and adheres to that Stone) will not be ashamed or give way or hasten away [in sudden panic]. Isaiah 28:16 AMP The NIV says: the one who trusts will never be dismayed. And the message version that caught my attention says: a trusting life won't topple.
I say that I trust God and that I trust others in my life (husband, family, friends) but I've been shown this week that I really don't!!!! If I am not trusting and respecting my husband, then I am not honoring and trusting God. If I am don't have love I am nothing...and love always trusts (1 Corinthians 13)
Sunday, April 11, 2010
random notes
Change your why to what! (Why is this happening?...to What can I learn from this?)
We can choose to be people that trouble stops, or people that trouble propels!
Ezekiel 11:19 (Amplified Bible)
And I will give them one heart [a new heart] and I will put a new spirit within them; and I will take the stony [unnaturally hardened] heart out of their flesh, and will give them a heart of flesh [sensitive and responsive to the touch of their God]
God may send what we need in a package we don't want.
What you can't stand, you may be called to fix.
There is a treasure in this trial.
Get the strife out of your life!!! Strife opens the door to confusion(James 3-4)
We spend way too much time trying to figure out way too much stuff...that we're never going to understand...so let's just enjoy our lives and God be God and love Him for who He is and not what He does. (Deuteronomy 8)
Persecution is from people, affliction is from circumstances....the enemy uses both against people when they come into the light.
We may sometimes loose a battle...but We WIN the war!
Prophetic Living-How to live like a winner
Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.
Jesus didn't think about the pain of Friday...He thought about the joy of Sunday! The promise to get Him through was Psalm 16:10-11 (see Acts 2:31). We need to focus on the prize, not our circumstances. Faith looks at the finish line, not at the race.
Two life perspectives: We can choose to live either photographically-seeing things as they are right now (never get better= discouragement, overwhelmed, bitter) or we can choose to live prophetically and be a winner. We need to learn to live like Jesus so we don't get discouraged and give up. Don't get trapped-look ahead. God has a promise, He's not going to let me be overwhelmed, things are going to get better! We need to focus on the promises God has given us! God lives in the supernatural and we must worship Him in spirit.
The nature of living prophetically: It is thinking that considers present circumstances with faith in God's invisible presence, His supernatural power, and His personal love and promises for every area of my life.
Three principles to live prophetically:
1. Live by faith-don't be controlled by what you see or fell. Beleive what teh Father has promised:JOY! Do not fear-don't beleive your eyes, listen to the Spirit. Prophetic living:the spirit telling the mind what is reality.
2. Live in God's promises. Every problem has a promise from God's Word-get in the Bible! 2 Corinthians 1:20 tells us the promises are Yes in Christ! One on my favorites in Psalm 30:5-joy comes in the morning!
Healing Promises: Psalm 103:2-5, Isaiah 53:5
Promises for your future: Jeremiah 29:11, Hebrews 13:5
Promises for Finances: Philippians 14:19, 2 Corinthians 8z;8
Promises to overcome fear of failure: Isaiah 54:17, Philipians 4:13
Promises about death: John 1:25
3. Live in prophetic faith
(30% of Bible is prophecy!) Encouraging!
Lord, I am chosing on this day to trust your promises! You have a plan and will work all things out for my good and your glory. I will trust you even when I don't understand because I know your ways are higher than my ways. I will focus my thoughts on you and not my circumstances. Thank you for showing me a new perspective and filling me with the power of your Spirit so that I can live out the promises. I praise you Lord!
(these are my notes from Pator Charlie's message this morning)
Friday, March 26, 2010
Focus on the Family: James Dobson on Parenting
http://phobos.apple.com/WebObjects/MZStore.woa/wa/viewPodcast?id=261059112
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Monday, March 8, 2010
Prayer
James 4:1-4 ask if its not in his will you won't get it!
Matthew 7:7
Ephesians 3:20
when you feel worried or frustrated PRAY!
John 14:12-14
when we pray In Jesus name we present all that he is.
James 1:8 5:16
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Stability
However many people you can help you can hurt. Kids need stability. Manage our emotions
1 Chronicles 12:33
Prov 25:28
Stable people win war
Just because you feel a certain way doesn't mean you have to act that way. You can help it if you want to, think about how you would change if pastor showed up. We can control ourselves even with our family!
Philippians 1:28-29
If we remain peaceful the devil knows his day is almost over and God knows we are trusting him. Suffering in flesh when we remain stable we want to have a fit. Get your growth in the hard times.Uncontrolled high emotions can cause trouble too
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Thursday, March 4, 2010
Moses
We don't need to get into works of the flesh or do things just because that's the way they've always been done.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Estate
Romans 8:17
Now if we are children, then we are heirs—heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory
1 Corinthians 2:9
However, as it is written:
"No eye has seen,
no ear has heard,
no mind has conceived
what God has prepared for those who love him
Make sure to read your copy of His will. We don't have to fight over it!
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Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Comparing
Each one should test his own actions. Then he can take pride in himself, without comparing himself to somebody else
2 Corinthians 10:12
We do not dare to classify or compare ourselves with some who commend themselves. When they measure themselves by themselves and compare themselves with themselves, they are not wise.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Driving Cool-Cool
Lord, thank you for reminders to slow down, and for the warning you give. Help me to yield to those warnings and not keep doing things that aren't right. Please help me to remember the feelings I had today so I can empathize with my child as I discipline her. Thank you for your mercy and grace...and for the warning instead of a ticket!