Sometimes it seems like I'm always looking for something to make me happy. Looking toward something that is coming up instead of enjoying today. Wanting something I don't yet have that I think will make me happy instead of enjoying what God has already given me to enjoy. Thinking that if "x" would just change, or "y" would happen, then I would be happy. Well...I'm done with it! I am choosing today to rejoice in the Lord always and again I say rejoice!!! I will celebrate my life just as it is and as Paul said, will learn to live in contentment no matter what my circumstances. I have spent too many days wishing for tommorows or longing for yesterdays. I have spent too many days forgetting the goodness of God-suffering from spiritual amnesia.
In his book Crazy Love, Francis Chan writes about spiritual amnesia in the first chapter. We are programmed to focus on what we don't have, bombarded multiple times throughout the day with what we need to buy that will make us feel happier or sexier or more at peace. This dissatisfaction transfers over to our thinking about God. We forget that we already have everything we need in Him. Because we don't often think about the reality of who God is, we quickly forget that He is worthy to be worshipped and loved. We are to fear Him.
Lord, forgive me for forgetting your goodness-You are good-all the time! Teach me to trust you and be content with your plan for my life even when it doesn't match mine. I know your ways are higher than my ways and you have a plan that is far better than any plan I could create in my mind. Thank you for the Joy that you make available to all who put their trust in You! Lord fill me with your joy while I'm waiting. Let my life overflow with the joy of the Lord-be my strength daily! Let me not suffer from spiritual amnesia-but to constantly remember the sacrifice that Christ paid for me!! How can I keep from singing when I think on the beauty of the cross? Lift my eyes to see your faithfulness when I am discouraged. Lord your Word reminds us that the thief comes to steal kill and destroy-but You came that we might have and ENJOY life to the full, till it overflows!!! Thank you Jesus!!!! Amen