My heart just hurts. I can't even describe it. I can't imagine the pain of giving birth to a stillborn or having a baby in heaven after only a few weeks here. I know the pain of miscarriage, but not having carried a baby full term and loosing her. I have a few friends who have been there. Yet they have hope. I guess that's the only way to keep going....to believe that God has a plan for it.
So...even though I'm still crying this was good for me to consider. I've had a rough week with my girls....but I have them! They are with me, I can feel their sweet warm skin and smell their breath and stroke their hair and hear them giggle. They may not always listen or do what I would like, but they are full of love and energy...and they are here!!!
- I will remember how blessed I am to have such sweet girls the next time they are whining or screaming or not sleeping.
- I will remember that God chose me to be their momma and He has a plan for their lives and mine.
- I will remember that God will give me all I need to be their momma...so when I am short on patience I will go to Him.